A STEP FURTHER

11:31 pm. A rush to get home with my new literature. Excitement. Creating web pages for my fitness site and learning to write articles for my blog are just a couple subjects I am diving into. Thoughts of Anthony Robbins power talk series I've listened to over the last few days come to mind as I try to compartmentalize all that needs to be started. I continue to fight a mess of thoughts and ideas in my mind.

As my organizing of thoughts makes little progress I start to realize I've been here before. Writing ideas down, talking of what I want to accomplish and reading on my passion in health and fitness is all too familiar. I have begun to understand I will need to take a step further this time around. Writing, talking and conducting research is a start but will not make the difference. Action steps in the direction I find my passion in will be detrimental. My standards must be raised! My belief system must be changed! I must strategies my action steps! And I finally realize i don't have to do it alone. I have the world to reach out to. Relief.

TODAY'S QUOTE : We should be taught not to wait for inspiration to start a thing. Action always generates inspiration. Inspiration seldom generates action.
~Frank Tibolt~


TODAY'S CHALLENGE : Take the next action step needed to move you a step further in the way of your goal.

HERE AND NOW

A letter from my family law attorney. Disappointment. The phone number and a list of questions for my finance attorney. Fear. The fear of the unknown had started to over come me. Past wreckage is here and now, but there is little action I can take at this point in time.

In debt, in the late stages of a long drawn out divorce and getting ready to relocate my new young family, I stand ready for a change. A change in belief, a change in character, a new foundation. A new way of life. My current circumstances are not ideal. Is it possible to create successes in my life passions from the dark depths I have found? The answer is YES!

I've been very fortunate to have grow close and in love with my amazing girlfriend, who has encouraged and agreed to study the greats in personal development with me. Napoleon Hill, Brian Tracey, Jim Rohn and a recent purchase of the Anthony Robbins series have dominated my thought process and has reached down in my soul to rearrange my core to prep me for change. Repetition is the father of growth, is what I've been taught.

I have listened to the " realist" and to the "skeptic" and have gotten no where. The fear driven couple can stand still together. I think its time to listen to the ones who have been here where I stand today and have achieved what I seek.

With that I stand here and now. I must take action with what stands in front of me. My task will be to find a course in my passions and do what it takes to start momentum in those areas, which are nutrition and writing. Two different fields but they will tie together in time.

Any feed back or suggestions are welcome and appreciated. I stand open and exposed, and I thank you for reading.

TODAY'S QUOTE : Using the power of decision gives you the capacity to get past any excuse to change any and every part of your life in an instant.
-Anthony Robbins -


TODAY'S CHALLENGE : What stands before you here and now which needs your attention. Take action in your life and start momentum to change your life.

WHERE DID IT GO

Something needs to happen! I hear " you have to love what you do " " pursue your passion, the rest will follow ". As I look into my passion of health and fitness, I take in the wave of twenty somethings achieving what my dreams had been. A recent spark of interest had elevated my motivation to an unstoppable high, but suddenly life hit, bringing me to my knees. Between getting lost in "how to build a web site", not having enough time to learn as quickly as I want and not being genetically thin and fit like the trainers I see flooding the industry I so much want into, my motivation starts spiraling down. Negative thoughts cloud my head, with no light in sight. Anger rushes in waves. Resentments appear out of no where. All the positive comments I hear are shielded by my dangerous mindset.

All to familiar. Here I am again. Whats the next step? Am I to old to brake into this industry? Do I know enough? Can I achieve my fitness goals to prove to all I'm worth following?

As my mind fades and my hope is hanging on by a thread, I found this quote.

TODAY'S QUOTE : "You must motivate yourself EVERYDAY!"
-Matthew Stasior-

TODAY'S CHALLENGE : Think of three different ways to motivate yourself, and practices daily. I shall take my own advices.

THE FEAR OF

Flash. The idea appears, it transforms and dominates all other thought. There is an echo in my head " If you think it and believe it you can achieve it!". Not one speaker I've studied has left that out. Thoughts of the past attempts start to haunt me. I can honestly say I haven't yet felt so passionate about a new venture to keep me moving forward for any length of time. The more time spent just thinking, opportunity slips away. Fear starts to sneak in, fear grabs hold of my ideas, my ideas are held captive and fear rules. The battle begins.

As I read Tribes by Seth Godin, the question is raised. What am I fearing? It's the fear of failure that has had the power over my future since I can remember. But is it really fear of failure? Failure it self is crucial for one to experience in order to grow. As I dig deeper within myself I come up with the two suspects I truly fear. The fear of criticism and or of rejection has been under disguised and hard at work. Although the critics and rejection will always be here, how I perceive them will be the key to getting past them and on to success.

The action steps will be to not only remind myself that I can and will take power away from these two tyrants by understanding and acknowledging they have been beat before by many. But also to talk about them with others who have been to war with them and have succeeded.

Putting it all together will be a task. Taking action will be crucial and keeping action is essential.

Any thoughts or experiences with this matter will be highly appreciated.

And here I stand, Exposed.

TODAY'S QUOTE :~ Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain but it takes character and self control to be understanding and forgiving. ~

TODAY'S CHALLENGE : Talk to at least one person a day for the next week about what it is your truly afraid of. Look for tools you can use and share to get past these fears.

THEN DISASTER HIT

3:30 AM..BEEP BEEP BEEP! Thoughts slowly make their way to my head. My body screams CAFFEINE! I shoot out the door to meet a co-worker to commute with. I'm encouraged by my friends current efforts to earn his BA in business while working and supporting his family.


We reached the job site and I'm greeted with Success Cd's to borrow and a highly recommended book to read. I feel as if all my thoughts are attracting like minded people to help guide me as I live out my journey. The day goes well. Suddenly I get a text, a person from my past demands money I owe. I strongly feel that it is undeserved, but by the court of law, there is little I can do. A spark of anger rapidly evolves into rage as I think how much I dislike this person who will gladly take my hard earned money for themselves.



Negative thoughts conquer my mind and furry continues to rise. from then on, I fall. My mind frame is in no position to make progress in my new direction. I had been so positive, so creative, so alive! I stand struggling, even to smile. Disaster had hit strong. What's next? Where do I go from here? I can't spend to long in this destructive state of mind.



Asking, myself if there is any possible way to change this situation, is where I start. If the answer is NO, I can then start accepting what it is I can't change. Trying to remember that I had a part in what it is I am facing, and understanding I must see MY part and learn from it. Trying to make better decision in my future. Although no one can be perfect, one can take preventative actions, as lessons are learned. As I take a closer look at myself and how I can improve, I'm no longer thinking about the one who did me wrong, Therefore moving from being a victim to taking responsibility and growing as a matured adult.

TODAY'S QUOTE : The happiest people in the world are those who feel absolutely terrific about themselves, and this is the natural outgrowth of accepting total responsibility for every part of their life.
~Brian Tracy~

TODAY'S CHALLENGE : Think of one person place or thing you have resentment with. Try to recognize your part in the problem and take responsibility for your actions or thoughts without placing blame on the other.